i see it now, it's only looking at all my past entries that i see it so clearly
that in this realationship, it was me who was always e one unhappy, that i always had smt to say about you, that i always had to find problems in our relationship, i realize now that not once you complained. it was always me, it was always me tryin to find a problem out of nth, always me tellin you tt u cldn't make me happy. i didn't see, i cldn't see, that if anyone was makin me unhappy, it was myself. why didn't i see it jaesung, why didn't you tell me? why did you let me put you down? why did you believe eth tt i said? why did you take it all in? all those hurtful stuff i said? why did you take it all in without defending yourself?? is it too late now? too late now tt i finally see? i wanna tell u jaesung, tell u that i'm sorry, i truly am..
that you really tried to make me happy, that you really did for the past two years, but tt it was me, i cldn't see, i cldn't see that you really did love me, that you were willing to try to make me happy, i cldn't see..