i wonder if u even read our blog now..
apparently not

i rem only writin weneva i was upset
weneva i felt like i cldnt stand these turmoil of emotions within me.
i'd take out a piece of paper and let my emotions flow thru the words,vanish between the lines, with only ink on the paper bearing remnents of my fleeting feelins.

i still enjoy writin, i love the mellifluous flow of words, the beautiful string of words wearing my array of emotions, displaying my thoughts to the world.
i almost miss writing to you in e most primitive of ways, juz a pen and me, on paper.
its on a night like this i would be writin to you, i thot u wld understand tt i've grown tts why, i've learnt to see things in a different perspective, tt gettin upset over not receivin ur call or not gettin to see you wldnt change ath else but only add on to the misery.

i rem gettin upset every other sunday wen i didn't get ur call, i wld take out another piece of paper to tell u how u've let me down yet again. or how i'd send another of my letters tellin u how u've disappointed me coz i haven been receivin ur letters. it was tirin en, so tirin. it drained me. drained e both of us. i cldnt see ath past tt. maybe tt's why you find it so amazin now tt suddenly i'm not complainin anymore, tt suddenly i'm not sendin all those hateful and painful letters. coz i'm different now. its pointless fightin against wad cant be done, wen its so much better to juz take it in my stride n look at the brighter side of things.
it still isnt easy for me to wait like this, there're nights like this that gets me down, but i juz remind myself tt its really pointless gettin upset, tt there are many things out there i can be happy abt.

its all abt embracin change, i'm embracin wadeva change i'm forced to go thru.
i'd take this as my rite of greater independence.
i guess then wad is amazin is witnessin this change in myself. dun u think?
how hav u grown my love in this period we've been apart?
how do u think our relationship has grown? its crucial i think to always reflect, coz only en can u truly grow..to look back n see e difference.
i think we've weathered storms, tt i've taken beatins i neva knew i cld shoulder, tt i've emergered a weaker n stronger person. tt i dunoe wad i want in life, tt i need to find my direction, tt i'm constantly lookin for my direction. tt in life its hard to do it alone, tt its easier to hav someone to grow wif, so grow with me..and lets amaze each other everyday..

i love you