i thot i was doing fine
i thot i was coping fine
i guess not
i'm not any stronger than i was e day u left
it still hurts so much
i lk at your pics everynite before i go to bed, they're the closest things i hav next to you
if only slp cld make this pain go away, but even it eludes me
i'd love to slp and not wake foreva, till u're back to wake me,
to wake me from this misery.
maybe it is the night, the night always gets to me, particularly as i lie awake in bed
i see my room illuminated quietly from the streetlights outside my window
i hear the soft rythmic breathing of my sister in a sweet slumber that eludes me,
and i feel more alone than eva. it feels like i'm the only aware of ath now, aware of the occasional motorist speeding by on the otherwise now empty roads, the way the shadows shift on e ceiling, aware of this growing numbing pain in my chest, this pain that consumes me. i'm afraid to cry out loud, even though i noe no one noes i am hurting inside now,but i juz dun wish for anyone to noe. and come tomorrow,hopefully no one wld even notice the episode from last nite. i wish i cld disappear sometimes, and not exist, juz for a moment, i wish i cld stop feeling.

i'm still waitin fr ur letter...
i feel so pathetic..
i didn't go to sch tday,i dunoe,maybe i was sick,or maybe i was simply too tired to get out of bed
i watched the brave one, it's really nice
i finshed the chocolatier game, i uncovered all e recipes and made e finest truffles and infusions!
ok.so my life is pretty boring now
i juz dowan to do ath really
i feel lazy

baby, you called tday, juz wen i was missing you so so terribly, i'm startin to believe that if you wish fr smt hard enuff, it juz might come true...but you hung up all too soon,and burst my bubble..
i'm sorry i had dance, and i missed ur calls, i noe you left me a msg, but its so muffled i cldn't hear ath, save fr the "i love you i love you i love you" you said at the end...baby, i love you too

i wanna hear frm u soon again...i need to, i'm gonna start wishin on e next star now!

oh no! i think i've put on wt honey! i can feel it! i can see it! pouts!! how how! it's all ur fault!!!

i miss you terribly...it felt almost juz like yest that you were right here beside me...
i miss e excitement that runs down my spine weneva i was gonna meet you!
e adenaline rush juz moments before seeing you, and e happiness tt fills my chest wen i fall right into your embrace! i miss u sweetheart! very very much! wen will ur letters reach me..i need to hear smt from you...