i miss you terribly jaesung
its amazing thou, how time really flies sometimes
it's comin to e end of jan soon
tts pretty scary innit
but it also makes me happier coz
each passin day brings me closer
to the day u're comin back
thou sometimes i feel like time can't seem to pass enuff
till u're back in my arms
i love you and i miss you babe, do you too?

jaesung, i miss you terribly...

ppl are always looking for assurance, seeking approval
wen act all the answers they are looking for can be from within
u dun havta care wad ppl might say, for they might put u down and dash ur hopes,
but all tt really matters lies within urself, coz at e end of the day
u dun havta answer to anyone but urself
so a decision made shd be based on ur own will, ur own belief
i dunoe if my decision to wait is one based on foolishness and denial or my stubborn beliefs
but until i noe wad it is, i will wait for you, coz i still believe in this love, so dun tell me tt it's a waste of time, or tt i'm only runnin away from e inevitable, coz i still believe, so until i noe wad i truly need, juz let me wait fr you

i miss you jaesung, i still do
i still think of you, why jaesung, why are you doin this to me?
why is the man i love the most the one who's also hurtin me the most?
why? i still love you, i still love you so so much
why dun u love me anymore? why isn't it enuff?
i gave you ten reasons to love me again, ten reasons fr us to try again,
but i guess that one reason was all u act eva needed,
dun u love me?
i can't stop hurtin and i can't stop cryin
i run to our spot, tracin the route we used to take tgh, but now i sit alone at our spot
why aren't u wif me anymore
why hav u left me behind, why dun u wan me anymore

jaesung,
i wonder how u're doin...
hav u learnt to move on alr?
hav u put my letters, our pictures and gifts aside?
do u hurt?
do u miss me? do you even think of me?
do u still find urself havin to stop urself from talkin abt me wen smt happens n it reminds u of me?
or hav u completely moved on now?
will u bother to want to know how i'm doin now as u're readin this?
or maybe u won't even be readin this, coz u hav nth to do wif me now
there is nth linkin us tgh now, i'm nt yours anymore, and neither are u mine
why wld u wanna know how i'm doin rite
why wld u care if i start datin ard
why wld u care even if i still do last min studyin
why wld u care if i'm happy or not

i thot i was brave enuff to let u go
i still can't
i can't imagine tt u'd be loving someone else who isn't me
tt someday u'd piggyback some other gal who isnt me
tt someday u'd hold some other gal in ur arms so tightly,
tt someday u'd whisper in her ear tt you thot she was e best thing tt eva happened to you
it hurts jaesung, it hurts to noe tt i'll neva be tt gal again
i thot i was strong enuff
i'm not, i'm not
all this talk abt learnin to let u go, is nth butl a lie, a lie tt i can't tell myself anymore

when u truly love someone so deeply,
they become your life, your soul, your entire entity,
you learn to give,to give with your whole heart
you learn to love,to love unbridledly with no conditions
and you learn to let go, to set him free
maybe these words are spoken with feigned courage
maybe someday this facade of bravery will mould into reality
in time, i will noe wad my heart truly wants
in time, i will only look back and reminsce the good times
but for now, for now i will learn to let you go
it hurts to know this is where we'll end
that the only memories we'll hav are those of the past
but i truly believe if you should return to me,
then we truly were meant to be
so live for me, but most importantly live for yourself
spread your wings and prepare to fly
fly freely and strongly into the sky
fly with brio and flourish in life's beauty
for i will hold you back no longer

how can u forget jaesung, tell me, tis love that we shared
is it so hard juz to love me, is lovin me so hard?
dun u rem? rem e times when u loved me enuff?
the times wen u held me in ur arms so tightly and told me u cldn't believe that i was act urs?
the times wen u thot u were so lucky tt u found me?
why hav i stopped matterin to u? when did u stop marvellin in e fact tt i was ur gal?
u said tt u've given me ur shiny heart alr, tt u'll only have me, tt u'll only wan me, tt u dun need anyone else but me, u said u'd come back fr me, u promised to love me, u said u cldn't bear to leave me eva again, u said u'll miss my pretty face, tt u'll miss huggin me to slp,even till now, i juz wan u to take me back i juz wan u to love me again,i can't let go, how can i move on?
i keep rememberin, i'm so scared i'd forget ur scent, why? how can u do this to me? when did i stop matterin to u? when did i stop matterin, when did u realise u cld let me go , tt i wasn't ur babylove anymore, tt i wasn't ur pretty petty princess, tt i wasn't important to u anymore..it hurts jaesung, why is tt u can be one who decides when this ends, to decide tt u cld stop lovin me, wad am i goin to do? wad am i goin to do wif these memories? wad am i suppose to do? tell me jaesung? wad am i suppose to do wen i walk past the places we used to go? wad am i suppose to do? wad am i suppose to do wen i'm still hurtin so much? tt everywhere i go and everything i do still reminds me of you.. wad am i suppose to do jaesung, when ur name, ur name still can mean everything to me...love me jaesung, pls juz love me again,pls, i'm beggin u to love me, why why why, hav i stoppped matterin to u? why won't u juz love me..why won't u love me anymore