i'm so fuckin pissed with you
fuckin pissed that you can do this to me
why are e tears only comin now
im so angry jaesung
so fuckin angry it hurts
hurts like it only happened juz yesterday
why tell me tt u'd fight fr me n leave me hangin like this
i noe tt u're nt good for me
i noe it myself
i ne tt u will neva fight for me
i noe tt you will neva be the man for me
but why, why does it still hurt so much
i thot wen u said tt u'd fight fr me, u meant them
tt u'd fight fr me like how i fought for u
tt u'd come surprise me and prove to me tt this time u really mean it
but u dun
u dun mean it
i tell myself tt i muz move on coz i deserve better
tt i will finally find a man who loves me enuff
who will fight for me like how i wld for him

i feel you my lord
i wanna feel you all around me
till my empty vessel is overflowin with my love fr you
that i will find joy and peace in your presence

Back to the start, my heart is heavy
Feels like it's time, to dream again
I hear your voice, and yes Im ready
To dance upon this barren land
Hope in my hands

Do not shut, Do not shut, Do not shut the heavens
But open up, open up, open up our hearts

Give me strength to cross the water
Keep my heart upon your altar
Give me strength to cross this water
Keep my feet dont let me falter

lead me back to you oh lord, lead me back into your kingdom

i miss you
i won't deny
but i noe tt i need to do this for myself
i wont do ath this time, if u really can fight for me,
then we'd meant to be
but i'm scared to carry tt hope
coz i'm scared to trust u again

courage to let go
but strength over time to move on

you neva fought for me before
not once
not even tonite

it was our anniversary
u cld say tt it was ironic, how it all came to a full circle
tt in the end, u still chose to let me go.
somehow i wish it cld hav been different
that for once u cld be e man i wished for u to be,
and i cld finally be e gal that means enuff to you
that i will finally be worth fightin for,juz this once
that just this once, u cld hav told me a different story
that you wld hav put up a fight at least, to at least try and keep my by your side
but u still chose to let me go
i guess it really juz shows tt you dun love me enuff, coz if i really mean smt u wld hav fought for me. you would have done everything u cld, like how i cld call you each time, beg you, sent you letters after letters fr mths, juz beggin you to stay with me, tt if i cld hav fought so hard for you becoz my love for you meant so much,
and yet tonite, u cldnt even call me, u cldnt even wait till u saw me face to face
u juz ended it all in a text. i guess i really meant so lil that your attempt to fight for me was juz futile texting only. and to think the way i fought for you, i fought for you for the past two years, i fought with everything i had, i gave everything i had, i loved you with everything i had, and i really thot tt all that wld hav at least meant smt to you, at least smt enuff tt is not dispensable in a single text msg. that you would hav at least fought for me with even half of the ferocity i had. but no, it was juz one fuckin text msg to end it all. even then
i was so tempted to call u, to ask u why, like how i have done on too many occassions in e past, crying n asking you why we cldnt make it work. but i didnt tonight.
coz i knew that if i were to do it again tonite, i wldnt be any different than i was.

i guess time will heal all wounds,i wish i cld heal u of ur pain
that if i were e one hurtin, u'd be hurtin juz as i am
you remind me in so many ways of myself, that we are more alike than i thot we were
i love you so dearly, that i dun wish fr u to be hurtin like this anymore
but it's all part of life my dear,
tt i'd wish for you to be happy more than anything else, but more importantly,
i want you to pick urself up,
to stand tall and face the world
and lastly,tt u will one day learn to love bravely again
you're stronger than u think you are
and u're braver than i am
it requires courage to let go
but greater strength to move on
you'll neva be alone in this coz i'll always be here for you, forever, time is nothing.

its been a while hasnt it?
a while since we last did smt tgh
a while since we both made e effort to make it all worthwhile
i noe we're both gonna try..
but i cant help but feel the both of u slippin thru my fingers
and i'm tryin so hard to keep you within my grasp,
i can't help but feel selfish
that i'm not being fair to anyone
the guilt is eatin at me, one day it will consume me,
and i might end up losin the man i love so dearly
i do not noe wad i want anymore
this riot of conflictin emotions are cloudin my judgement
blurrin my faith, shroudin my mind
i wish for you to be happy
i love you too much that losin u will only be too painful
but are we doin ath? i'm afraid that we're both too afraid to admit it, that we may hav actually given up a long time ago.
that wad we're holdin on to is juz a love that once burned so brightly
but we're slowly dyin, dimmering, fadin..
i wish i knew
i wish i had all e answers
i wish u knew too
then u'd be able to tell me now, tell me wad i really want coz i really don't noe anymore