sugar baby darlin, i miss callin you by all these endearments!
sch's gonna start soon!! dunoe, i'm kinda excited but nt really lkin frward to it either! i wish u were here!!!

i've been eatin a lot honey!! it's insane! i dunoe why but my appeatite has increased by servings and bowls! hahahah! i can eat a lot now!!! i muz start controllin!! i can't stop eatin icecream either! i've been eatin icecream everyday fr e entire wk n more! like i juz ate a tub of magic brownies from ben n jerry's last nite and yet i ate haggen dazs again this morn!! seems like e line down my abs is gonna be a tough one to get! hahahah! nvm! my diet shall start tmr!

i'm gonna take ballet soon too u noe! i muz force myself to do e split! oh man, it's gonna be so pain!!

ok,i'm feelin slpy! i'm such a lazy bum! i miss cuddlin up to you, and fallin aslp in ur arms! i miss our lazy days! where we'd wake and eat and go back to slp again! hahaha! i miss huggin you!

i love you always pupbear my sweetheart!

are you the one?

baby,i'm waiting fr your call! i'm really hopin that my fone wld ring soon!

sugar,do you rem tt we talked abt this before...u said tt you knew tt i was e one, do you still believe so?

somehow i think tt e one only exists wen e timing and eth is right, like you can hav so many gfs or bfs but u'll likely end up marryin the one tt u're dating wen u r of marriagable age. imagine, if we've met 6 yrs down e road from now instead, you wld hav married me rite en, but tt isn't that case now, rite? maybe we shd hav met later!!

how do you noe wen you've met e one?

i think i've found mine, i see myself wif you in e future, do we share e same vision? do you still see me as ur future wife? do you still hav dreams abt me being ur lil wife runnin errands round e house? i need ur reassurance again, i miss how you can always make eth alrite, u'd noe wad to say to make me feel better now too!

darlin, i love you, always, and i miss you terribly my future you bo!

darlin! you called me again last nite!!! i'm so happy!! i'm so goin to send you a pic of me in a bikini soon k! i can't wait fr your letter too!!! i miss you so so much!!!! your calls r so brief,i wish they'd last longer!!! i hope ur officers will be in a good mood more often!!! hahaha! i love you darlin,you sound so sweet and cute over e fone,juz like how u used to! i love you! I LOVE YOU!! i LOVE you!! I LOVE LOVE love YOU!!!

darling,wen i missed your call on mon nite, i was really upset wif myself, it was so hard trying to hold back e tears in front of everyone else...i finally gt to hear your voice tonite, it was so nice juz to hear you again...i miss you so so much, i was silently cursing myself too after we hung up coz i forgot to wish you baby!!! happy belated 23 mths anniversary!!

i'm burnt and tanned! reckon u'd wanna noe how i lk like now! you said you didnt lose much wt! are you lyin to me sweetheart? hahah! i miss ahn kook jin jr! camp was really fun! ran ard a lot! made a lot of new frens! everyone thinks i'm super loud!! n the seniors said they cld hear me screaming frm hundred metres away la! am i really tt loud?? u neva eva said tt abt me ar! oh!
and there were the FREAKS too!! they're so freaky!! like they become these possessed idiots lusting after victory, wif no room fr rational sanity! and become so violent and scary! i really dun like em!!
weneva i see em i'd scream freaks freaks so friggin loud!! hahah! i miss e times wen i'd entertain you wif my stories of all e weird stuff tt has happened to me, like i'd tell you abt my 1.58m gay sp,whose hands r smaller than mine! can u believe it! and ck and jameson who turned out to be such pro top models! doin justice to my paper creations! hahah! i miss hearing your laughter...

i love you always

tmr is my orientation camp alr, it's SCE/MSE camp
in other words i'd most likely be stuck wif the indian and chinese national fr Sch of Comp engine.
HAHAAH! i reckon i'd bail out halfway thru alr..
there's so much stuff to bring! i hate camps! slpin wif foreign ppl, in a foreign place wo my fav bedsheet or bloster! i'm alr tempted to bring sealopom!

btw, some guy called clarence who is actively courtin my da jie currently told me tt korea ns in nt tt strict!!!!!!!!! you lied to me! he said it's only confinement fr 3 mths after which u're able to bk out every wkend!! tt wld mean long overseas calls frm js n late nite msn chats too! and also all the more opportunity fr you to hav wkend gfs! you can cheat on me! i dunoe who to believe anymore!! dun wanna get my hopes up only to hav em dashed. you suck! i dun like you! you shd hav bothered to find out and plan. now i'm stuck in this hopless mess of confusion, anxiety, paranoia,irrational uptight unpredictable wreck. i really hate you!

i sincerely hope tt u're also worryin tt i might find another guy! coz i'd hate to noe tt i'm only one worryin over such issues no matter how petty n insignificant they may seem to others!

do u noe tt you've a dimple on e right weneva you smile tt goofy smile of yours...

i've a secret blog

i smell good...tts how i'd msg you after i've showered
i've a sore throat...n tts how u'd noe i've juz woken up
you know me so well..
i miss you darling, so so much
i walk by the swimmin pool and i rem the nites we spent snuggling up to each other under e stars,indulging in our lil intimate tete a tete wrapped in your arms, i wish to lose myself in tt moment of reprieve once more..

i've a secret blog tt no one noes abt but you,i reckon my sisters noe thou, coz they see me bloggin sometimes, but it's still my secret blog, our secret blog

i'm so scared tt u'd forget me in there,wad if you find someone new? i wldn't even noe..somehow i'm nt expecting the letter anymore, and i'm afraid tt i almost believe tt u wldn't call either coz u might nt noe e extension number to call me, or u simply can't make overseas call there...

i feel so alone, do you even miss me as much as i miss you?'
it hurts so badly, sometimes i can't help but cry myself to slp
like tendrils, the pain slowly spreads through me and entwines me
leaving me trapped in its entanglement of numbing pain
it's so hard juz to breathe
as it only gets more and more laboured
and the tears juz dun stop flowing
it really feels like a heartbreak,
only tt it's becoz i'm missing you

honey! you noe wad i did tday! i went to punti-tigu's place to make my sp's gift and cook dinner!!
i bought a notebook fr my secret pal, and we took turns to draw all over it! like every few random pages u'd see rubbish stuff! HAHAHAH! so ugly! we wrote quotes in broken english! and anyhow add S behind words!! i'd do e same fr u too! but i can't ship it to you...wen will ur letter come? =(

We cooked sweet and sour chicken! bacon wif asparagus! egg wif onions and chilli! yummy!! everyone said it was nice!! i wish i cld cook fr you!! i wanna cook fr you!! i enjoy cookin now! it's like a labour of love! wen u're back i'll cook all ur fav food fr you k! i'll go learn how to cook sambal kang kong k!

I love you darling, and i miss you so so so muchhhhhhhhhh!

i had an epiphany today! well, nt really, i read it somewhere, and i thot it really made sense...

Love is not blind...love juz lets you see someone the way your eyes cannot see...
Coz your heart doesn't judge,scrutinize and analyze one's imperfections and flaws, it simply accepts everything. that explains why you are so beautiful to me, becoz my heart doesn't see the flaws n imperfections that you have, coz it accepts eth t you are,and you're perfect in my eyes, love doesn't make you blind, it opens your heart... i guess i'm happier now tt you think i'm beautiful becoz you love me, it's so much more meaningful tt way
i love you,always

Yest was pretty fun, went fr lunch wif charly and sarah at bedok interchange ( e one which u complained was horribly overated! ) haha! ya the kuay chup wasn't fantastic, chee kway was so so, and ou lou was only fair. hahah! i reckon u're alr missing the food here!

Sheng hua reminds me of you! coz it was e period wen our relationship was really ambiguous!
e way we'd msg till e wee hrs in e morn, and e way u confessed tt i was someone special and how u act gave a shit abt me ! and yet ignore me e very next day!! my sweetheart was neva really good wif words, but u touched me nonetheless...

It's e lil things tt remind me most of you,

the bench at e playground tt u'd always sit at to wait fr me
the bustop outside my place
hainanese chicken rice stall at far east plaza
bugis street's wanton mee
the way u'd always keep my wallet n fone wif you coz i always misplace em
e walk home frm paya lebar mrt
our slpy bus rides
our secret hand signal
e way u always say i love you before we hang up
and how u always catch my blow kisses

i love you darling, and i miss u so so much